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Week in Review – 10.25.2020

The most important thing you need to know about last week, is as of 2:35 Friday afternoon I am on vacation!

I really needed a break. I’ve been just over 48 hours and I’ve already felt so much of the stress fade away. I’m relaxed. I’m doing the things I want to do on the timeline that I want to do them. I slept in this morning, decided to get my butt moving and get to the gym where I had a great workout. Picked up groceries and whatnot, came home, and I had a two hour marathon call with a friend.

For the most part, the week was pretty normal. Work was work – busy and short-staffed. What else is new? But I managed to get everything done to prep for being on vacation, and I think I set everyone up for success while I’m gone. At the very least they won’t run out of anything. Or they shouldn’t.

Here are some of the highlights:

  • Mike and I had a lovely breakfast earlier this week before we both went to work at a local bougie breakfast place. It was nice spending time together on a day where we’d both normally be doing our own things before work.
  • My tattoo was healed by earlier this week. Mike was a little annoyed that I apparently can heal a tattoo in 9 days where his took over three weeks.
  • Got a few good workouts in. No major weight change – pretty much held steady all week. Kind of surprising, really, as I had at least two days of I’M GOING TO EAT ALL OF THE FOOD. No regrets, though. I got back at it today.
  • We had a really lovely dinner with friends last night where we met a good friend of ours new boyfriend. He was also lovely.
  • I’m sure you remember a few months ago when I just wasn’t sleeping. Well, since that ended, I’ve been sleeping, but not well. Between that and waking up with aches and pains (which I attributed to the weather getting cooler), I bit the bullet and after some research bought this mattress topper. Last night was the first night on it. Holy crap. It’s the best sleep I’ve had in a long time, possibly over a year, and I didn’t wake up sore. Granted, an n=1 doesn’t mean much, statistically speaking, but I’m cautiously hopeful.

Tomorrow I go get my rook piercing checked out, and will be getting a daith at the same time. With the exception of one other piercing I want, I think this is pretty much it, at least for awhile in terms of piercings. There’s not a whole lot on the agenda for the rest of the week. A few appointments, getting together with a friend or two at least once more, and then a mini trip out of town at the end of the week. I’ve got stuff to do, sure, but I plan on planning relaxing as much as possible at the same time.

Mental health has been good all week, a little anxiety toward the end of the week. I worked at a job a number of years ago that they always fired someone the day before vacation. All these years later I still get a bit nervous about it. There’s no reason I’d be fired, but still… anxiety. It’s a bitch.

Well, that’s it for this week. Stay safe, friends!

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The office, and what it means to me

I had similar conversations with both Mike and our roommate tonight (he’s moving out in two weeks which is why the dream of the office has come to fruition). And it really made me think. Why is having a home office so important to me?

And then I realized – it means having my own space in the house. It means not having to blog, balance the checkbook, plan, deal with all of the adult stuff from the couch. It means getting all of my stuff – laptop, planner stuff, books, Funkos and collectables out of the living room, uncluttering it, and turning it back into a living room. The bookcase is moving upstairs, all clutter is going with it, all of the books that are in the bedroom (and there’s over 30 of them. I wish I was kidding) can go upstairs. All of my craft stuff can be organized in one place so I know what I have and where it is. My planner stuff also goes with it.

Right now my stuff is spread all over the house. Most in the living room, some in the kitchen, some in the bedroom, hell some of it is in the basement just randomly tossed (I found a box of candle making stuff that I didn’t even know I had in the bathroom down there.)

I bought a really nice L-shaped desk. Half of it will be dedicated to my laptop and all of it’s peripherals – keyboard, mouse, monitor, laptop stand, etc. as well as all of the stuff I commonly use day to day. The other half will be for planning, scrapbooking, stuff that I need space to do. I got a cube organizer for the closet for all of my craft stuff. And I also got everything I could possibly need to help keep myself organized.

But to have a chunk of the house to call myself… That’s the part that I’m most looking forward to. A space for all of my stuff. I didn’t realize until I really started getting into the planning and sourcing of this project just how little space is actually mine and just mine. And now that we’re like about a week away from the dream becoming reality, I’m starting to realize why this is so important to me and why I’m so excited about it.

It probably sounds weird, but I haven’t had a space all to myself in a long damn time. And I can’t bloody wait.

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I’m so ready for vacation

Two more shifts. As of Friday around 330-4, my 11 day vacation will start. I cannot wait. Literally. I’m practically vibrating I’m so ready.

Plans?

Why yes, I have a lot of them.

In no particular order:

  • getting my hair done
  • getting waxed
  • getting a daith piercing
  • starting work on my sleeve
  • hanging out with friends
  • a livestream of a concert of one of my favorite bands
  • getting out of town to Gettysburg for a few days
  • starting to set up my new home office (no more blogging from the couch!)
  • getting to see my aunt for the first time since… Christmas? Not long after that, at least
  • working ahead a bit on the blog
  • getting the house totally cleaned
  • RELAXING

I need a mental health break. It’s been four months since my last vacation from work, and the last four months have been rough both in and, in some respects, out of work. I want to do the things that I want to do for a week and a half, get up when I want to get up, see the people that I want to see. And I do not want to set foot in my store for 11 days (stupid coincidence is that I’m going to have to pick up a prescription – thank goodness for drive thru pharmacies). I want to update this blog with furniture building exploits, talk of piercings and tattoos, reviews of concerts, pictures of battlefields, and lots of book talk. I want to come out of this week and a half with a spring in my step and a new outlook on life.

Here’s to hoping.

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Columbine by Dave Cullen

I mentioned a few posts back that I was reading Columbine by Dave Cullen. I finished the book a few days ago, and here are some of my thoughts.

Personally I thought it was very well done. Cullen delved into the history of Harris and Klebold, and not just by a few months before the massacre, but rather a few years. He helped you understand how things got the point that they did. He explained the motivations of the two for committing the crime, what led them to that point, and dispelled a lot of assumptions that are still floating around about the attack. He got into the psychology of both – Harris as a psychopath, and Klebold as the suicidal disciple. It was interesting to read that Harris was the one that did most of the prep work, so to speak. Klebold contributed very little in the arming and planning. While he was absolutely a willing participant, it also seems like he was kind of along for the ride. Kind of like it seemed like a good way to kill himself – go out in a blaze of glory, so to speak.

Cullen also, obviously, spent a lot of time in the victims, and not just the ones who died. He went deep into the story of each one – their lives, their families, how they died or were injured, what happened to them inside of the school, etc. One story that really hit me was that of Patrick Ireland. He was the kid that hung out of the window of the library. I remember him well, from news coverage that day. Honestly? That image is ingrained in my head, and I don’t think I’ll ever forget it.

But Cullen also went to places that it was probably hard to go – dispelling myths and rumors about what happened to who, and where. I guess there was a bit of a controversy around Cassie Bernall in which a story was told early on that she proclaimed her faith to the killers before she was shot. Eyewitness accounts show that this isn’t what happened – it was another girl, but an early report that it was her and her story went viral. She was proclaimed by local congregations to be a martyr, her mother went on to write a book about it. But it wasn’t actually her; it was another girl that survived the attack.

Which leads me into the next topic – the press. Cullen breaks down how misinformation was shared and it was the press that really shaped the narrative of the whole thing. This was not helped by the fact that the police department and FBI were being incredibly tight lipped about absolutely everything. There was an interesting point that by the next day a lot of kids had seen the news coverage of the day before, and were parroting back to reporters what they had seen on the news, unintentionally. It’s understandable that memories were fuzzy – when you’re in that kind of situation your body goes into fight or flight mode and the formation of memories is kind of put on hold. I’m sure you can think of a time in your life when your adrenaline was pumping (a car accident, for example), and when you look back later your memories are kind of fuzzy, if they’re there at all. It’s not surprising that these kids had the same thing happen. (This is a big reason why eyewitness testimony can be very unreliable.)

Lastly the police and FBI. They kept quiet on just about everything, and it took court orders brought by victim’s families to start getting information released. I wonder if part of this wasn’t to cover up the fact that they dropped the ball on Harris and Klebold before everything went down. They were both part of a “rehabilitation” program after they were busted for robbery. Harris was a charmer – said and did all of the right things, and he pulled Klebold right along with him. But it went deeper than that – Harris had made threats against a classmate, and his parents called the police. The police soon found Eric’s website in which he proclaimed some of his murderous ideas, and the police did nothing about it. It seemed like they tried to hide this, after the fact by destroying records and hiding warrants. The FBI and Jeffco police did a lot of things right – but they also did a lot of things wrong.

So yeah. Overall an excellent book. There are some criticisms out there that he manufactured stories, quoted people that he didn’t talk to, etc. I’ve done a little research on my own, and from what I’ve seen, everything jives with Cullen’s narrative.

One thing kind of shook me about this book, something that I had never thought about. I was a year younger than the two. As the intelligent loners, had we gone to school together, I most likely would have been at least friendly with these two. They hid their plans and inner thoughts from everyone, and their friends never had any idea what they were up to. Sure, one knew about the guns, another knew about the pipe bombs, but they didn’t have any inkling what was planned. But this could describe a number of people that I was friends with in high school. That was kind of a terrifying thought.

It’s more than likely that I’m going to go deeper down this rabbit hole – I’ve already devoured the Wikipedia pages relating to the event. I want to hunt down some more scholarly writing about the subject. But I think I need a break. That’s a pretty heavy subject matter, and I need something a little lighter for now.

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Week in Review – 10.18.2020`

What a week. The most notable thing that happened is that my insomnia came back hard Friday night. I ended up being up for almost 27 hours. Luckily there was two of us at work yesterday morning, and I had a ton of comp time, so I boogied out of there once everything I needed to get done, was done. Then I came home and slept for 18 hours. I just woke up, and I actually don’t feel like wet, hot garbage, so that’s a plus. Luckily I close tonight so I can get a bunch of stuff done in the morning, go to work, come home and pass out again to hopefully reset the clock.

So here are the highlights.

  • started working out, and actually made it back to the gym this week. I feel like that was the final piece of the puzzle in the “am I feeling better” question. Three times this week to start, I’m hoping to hold there for a week or two, and then knock it up to 4 times a week. I’d like to get back to 5, but I think 4 is a good goal for now. In the meantime, I lost almost 2 pounds last week. So woooo! for that.
  • overall a very productive week. Everything I wanted to get done – and then some – got done. I’m relearning to manage my time and prioritize the things that need to be done, and get those things done before I tackle anything else (or at least have a plan to tackle those things when I get home, whatever).
  • got my Winter Soldier tattoo finished this week. It was a good session. My tattoo guy and I got along ridiculously well, which combined with his talent, is why he and I are doing all of this work. About a month ago we did the border and the red star in the middle. This week we did all of the gray/blue metal work. Personally I’m quite pleased without how it turned out. It’s actually already starting to peel – Mike and Johnny both call me the Wolverine of tattoos about how ridiculously fast and well I heal. I have money on that it’s healed by Halloween.
  • Work was good. I went in for a few hours in the morning one that I closed one night to give them a hand. Garnering goodwill where I can. This week I’m going to start looking seriously at corporate jobs and putting my resume together with that in mind. The only way something is going to happen with my career is if I make it happen.
  • The most notable thing that happened this week was the insomnia, and hopefully that was a one-off. My pdoc advised that after the calamity that was August that it might pop up every now and then for the next few months, and it sucks. When it happens, it always works that I never feel even remotely tired until it’s time to go do something.

That’s pretty much it for last week. I’m kind of enjoying these productive, boring weeks. I’m just hoping that nothing upsets the apple cart.

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Yeah, I’m a little type A

In case you haven’t figured it out yet, I have a very Type A personality type. Wikipedia has this to say about what the personality type theory has to say about Type A personality type:

The hypothesis describes Type A individuals as outgoing, ambitious, rigidly organized, highly status-conscious, impatient, anxious, proactive, and concerned with time management. People with Type A personalities are often high-achieving “workaholics”. They push themselves with deadlines, and hate both delays and ambivalence.

I’m in that quote. In all seriousness, I tick a lot of those boxes. Ambitious, rigidly organized, impatient, anxious, proactive.

With this in mind, do you know what I spent my afternoon doing? (Obviously not, I guess.) Making spreadsheets to track household chores and other things around the house; updating my spreadsheets for our bank accounts, budget, and bill tracker for next year; and updating our Google calendars with things for the rest of this year and into next year (appointments we already have, reminders to schedule other things, and putting in events that we know – hope – will happen).

I know that organization is my way of dealing with both anxiety and ADD, but sometimes I have to step back and just say, “whoa.” I don’t know if all of it is really all that necessary, but it keeps me on point and on task, so… that’s a good thing, right?

I mean, we all create systems to help keep us on track for everything from finances to work to whatever. But at what point do you say that enough is enough? How much organization is too much? I wonder this about myself from time to time.

I’m a member of a few Erin Condren and planner groups on Facebook, and I see some of these women having four (four!) planners that they work out of. I can see two, sometimes. But three or more seems like overkill unless there’s a very specific reason. Sometimes it seems like they have planners just to have different planners. I’m going to admit, I just don’t get it. But to each their own, right? In reality – how is it different than my planner, my petites to keep me on track, and all of my spreadsheets? I mean, they help keep me sane, on time, and organized.

I’ve thought about it a lot today, and you know what they say. Those that live in glass houses…

This might be the most disjointed post I’ve ever made. Know what? Screw it. Not everything needs to be perfect.

Stay safe out there!

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A review – Amazon Personal Shopper

Hello!

This is going to be a little different than my normal posts, but I wanted to share this for anyone that has Amazon Prime.

There’s a program called Amazon Prime Personal Shopper. Now, I’m the first to admit that my wardrobe is seriously lacking, especially as we move into fall and winter. I’m sure you gathered by now that my style has drastically changed over the past year from “meh, that’s kind of ok I guess” into something a little more deliberate. I have a hard time shopping for myself. At the stores around here I never seem to find what I want, and end up with more of the first category or nothing at all, rather than something I really like and am excited about.

I tried StitchFix a number of years ago, and while I liked it, most of the clothes were kind of pricey, and since I didn’t have a real style at that point, I kept getting sent things that were very preppy. I tried to love the pieces I kept, but ultimately they just weren’t a good fit for me, although at the time I wasn’t really sure why.

So I took a chance and have now done two months of the Amazon Prime Personal Shopper, and I have to say, I couldn’t be happier. To start, you leave a brief note for your stylist as to what you’re looking for, what your style is, etc. You can also take one of those “Would You Wear This?” quizzes that these services are so fond of. You’re charged a $4.99 styling fee, which compared to other services I’ve used in the past is pretty low. But it doesn’t get applied to your balance of what you keep.

But whoever has done the styling for the last two months, I don’t know if it’s been the same person or different people, have freaking NAILED the boxes I got.

Now, the best part about the Amazon service, is that once your picks are curated, you get an email. You’re directed to an Amazon page where you can pick up to 8 things from either the picks generated, or each pick has a “something similar” (or something like that) link under each pick that you can also pick from. You can change the washes on jeans. You can find a shirt or a pair of shoes that you might like to go with a pair of pants. I think I even had a jewelry suggestion in one of these boxes. So you’re not just totally limited to the list that they picked.

Once you’ve made your selections, your box is shipped out. Once you receive it you have seven days to try everything on and make your final picks with what you’re keeping and what you’re sending back. For each thing, whether you’re keeping it or returning it, you can tell the stylist what you did, or didn’t like about each piece. Everything from fit, too large, to small, material, color, quality, etc. I’ve read that the more things that you select, the better able they are in the future to find something that you might like.

The prices are pretty reasonable. Again, at the beginning you can choose a price point to stay in for each item. This box I kept 3 things (including a pair of Levi’s jeans), and my total was only around $100, probably half of that being the jeans. The first box I kept four things, I believe, and the box was still under $150. They send you a return label to send everything back, all you have to do is drop it at a UPS point.

I have to say, if you’re looking to update your wardrobe, know what you like, but have a hard time finding it, I recommend this. Highly. I’m the kind of person that hates shopping, especially as my tastes are kind of specific and I don’t have the time or patience to really shop for what I want.

I really do think that all of these boxes are what you make of them – if you’re vague in your notes, you’re going to get a wider selection of items that might not really be to your taste. If you’re specific you’re giving them more to work with and less they have to sort through to find something that you might like.

I’ve only been doing the month to month styling, and I’ll probably hold off again until January or February once it’s time to start thinking about spring clothes just because I don’t need a ton of clothes, overall. In the winter, especially to work, sweaters are the name of the game for me. This year for out of work things I plan on shaking it up a bit, but this was definitely able to get me some good basics to go on.

Anyway, there it is. I know a lot of people aren’t aware that Amazon has this service, so I figure I’d throw it out there for anyone that hates shopping as much as I do.

Top 5

Top 5 General Recipes

We’ve been doing a lot of cooking at home, recently. I’ve been trying to meal plan and prep as much as possible, especially now as I’ve been trying to eat better.

So here’s some of the greatest hits.

Blueberry Oat Muffins – I’ve been making these suckers a couple times a year for about three years. I usually end up getting somewhere around 18 muffins per batch. They’re delicious, filling, and freeze well. I generally leave out 3 or so of these at a time and toss the rest in the freezer. They’re a nice alternative to Clif bars in the morning or for an afternoon snack.

Instant Pot Jambalaya – I’ve become a big fan of the Instant Pot since I finally caved and got one two years ago. I use it for as much as I can. Meals are quick, tasty, and it’s an easy way to make healthy meals for all three of us. This jambalaya is stupid good. I made it about a year ago for the first time, and a month or so ago a good friend was coming over for dinner and she specifically requested that I make this again. I’ve made it with one, two, or all three meats. All options are delicious. It hasn’t been easy to find andouille recently, so smoked sausage works just as well. And this recipe makes a ton. Be prepared for leftovers. It’s just as good heated up over the next few days, and it’s a great fall recipe. Warm, spicy, and filling.

Instant Pot Meatlof – Another Instant Pot classic in this house. It’s so good I’ve even got my picky-eating parents eating it twice a month (we don’t eat it nearly that often, thankfully). It’s perfect because you cook the potatoes in the Instant Pot at the same time, so they end up soft and savory. I actually bought the stuff to make it sometime this week as Mike’s been asking for it.

Make Ahead Chicken Fajita Lunch Bowls – This is one of my favorite things to take to work for lunch or dinner. It’s easy to make, easy to assemble, filling, healthy, and tasty. It can be eaten heated up or cold, and if you’re making it to take to work, you can get anywhere from 4-6 servings out of one prep. To make it even easier Tyson makes excellent already cooked chicken strips and breasts that you can use rather than baking your own chicken. I’m all about convenience, so if you go this route the only thing you actually need to cook is the rice. And guess what – the Instant Pot has a rice cooker function! (I swear, I’m not being paid to rep the Instant Pot. It’s just so damn useful.)

Lastly, my personal favorite.

Bread Pudding II – I love bread pudding. If I had to pick one thing to eat for the rest of my life for every meal and never gain weight or get sick of it, it would be bread pudding. And this is the best recipe I’ve found to make it at home. The same friend from above asks for it for her birthday and Christmas and as “payment” whenever she does me a favor (I’m not kidding). I’m not a big fan of raisins, so I just leave them out of the recipe. It ends up tasting like warm, soggy French toast. It’s the most perfect bread pudding recipe. Last time I made it I made a caramel sauce to drizzle over it. It was absolutely decadent.

So there you go. Five of my go-to recipes for all occasions. All of these are relatively quick to make, generally don’t require a lot of prep and will keep you going through the day.

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Week in Review – 10.11.2020

What a week. A lot happened, and nothing happened, all at the same time. Right now? I need a nap. But dinner and a shower are higher on the list still. This is subject to change.

One important thing I learned this week is how to prioritize what needs to be done, what should be done, and what could be done. And I’m not beating myself up if not everything gets done, so long as the important things are. Once I re-figured this out, it was another productive week. I got done everything that I wanted to get done, even a number of things that just could be done.

Here’s some of the highlights:

  • I got back into podcasts. I did a whole post about this earlier in the week, but just to recap, I hadn’t realized that I wasn’t listening to podcasts anymore. I love podcasts of all different topics and genres. Looking back it started to get to the point where I just couldn’t concentrate on them – hell, I wasn’t even listening to them when I did have them on. A flip switched, though, and I’m back at it on my commute, while I’m at home doing things, whatever. Podcasts are back in my life. I hadn’t realized how much I had missed them.
  • As I stated earlier, it was a super productive week. I’m slowly working things that I had let fall by the wayside back into my daily and weekly routines in ways that make sense and still maximize my time. One thing I’ve discovered the joy of – curbside pick up for all sorts of things from all sorts of stores. Not having to actually go into a store and spend 45 minutes or longer (or sometimes shorter) searching for everything that I want is a hell of a time saver when you’re doing it at three stores in one day. I can get all of the “shopping” done in under an hour and be home again. There’s an added bonus to this – I’m not buying random crap that I don’t need because it looks interesting or whatever. It’s made it a lot easier to stick to a budget when someone does the shopping for you.
  • We had a Zoom dinner with friends. For awhile we were doing this every other week, but it somehow fell by the wayside for a bit. But we “got together” with them and visited and had a good time while Mike and I ate hot dogs. It was good catching up with them. I don’t think we’ll go back to a biweekly schedule, but definitely once a month.
  • Other than last night, sleep has been good. The dreaded close-open happened (again) last night (because my boss is a butthead and insisted on doing the manager’s schedule and then didn’t pay attention to what he was scheduling everyone, namely me, but I digress). I got home from work, not tired. Folded laundry. Not tired. Cleaned up the kitchen. Not tired. Loaded the dishwasher. Not tired. Scooped the litter box (fun fact – one of the boxes is in the bedroom and I totally did this with a headlamp on so I didn’t wake Mike). Not tired. Uuuuuuuugh. It was one of those nights. I finally ended up getting about 5 hours of sleep. It SUCKED today at work.
  • I got the garden winterized. This is my least favorite part of gardening – cutting everything back for the winter means there’s no green or color in the garden other than shrubs. It signals that summer is over, fall is here, and winter is coming. I love fall, hate winter.
  • My diet control is getting better. Really knuckling down and counting both calories and macros has been hard, at times, but for the most part (I’m looking at you, Friday) it’s been ok. My weight is down a bit even from the beginning of the week, so that’s a plus.
  • I unfroze my gym membership – I’ll be ready to go as of tomorrow, and I plan on heading right there after work. I need this more than I think I realized. Working out at home is all well and good, and I will continue to do so, but there’s something about physically going to the gym and even just hitting a treadmill for 30 minutes. If I’m at home, I can still easily be pulled in different directions. When I’m at the gym, I can ignore my phone, texts, emails, etc. I’m really looking forward to this.
  • The roommate is moving out! First week of November he’s gone. It’s not that I don’t like him, or mind him being here – far from it, actually. But I’m looking forward to, after almost three years, having this space just being me, Mike, and the cats. No one coming and going at odd hours (and consistently setting the damn alarm off). No more having to wear pants. But the best part – we’ve decided to turn his bedroom into an office for me! No more working on everything from this blog, to bills, to planner stuff, to whatever else, on my lap on the couch. I’ve got everything I need in an Amazon wish list, and with my bonus coming soon I can literally afford to buy everything in one fell swoop and then spend a day building everything and setting everything up the way that I want it. I am so excited it isn’t even funny. I’ll have a place for my collections of books, and Funkos, and I can start collecting things like wands and lightsabers and swords because I’ll finally have a place to put them. The living room and bedroom can get uncluttered as I move everything up there onto the bookcase and shelves, and I’m going to turn the closet into a crafting storage place where I can keep yarn, scrapbooking supplies, candle making stuff, all of it. I’m hoping to get all of my hobby and crafting and organization stuff all in one place, in a space that I can actually use. I’m super excited. I’m happy for him that’s finally back on his own two feet, and I’m happy for us because we can take our house back.

That’s pretty much all I’ve got for this week. Next week I’ve got my last tattoo appointment for my Winter Soldier piece, and we’re going to legit layout the sleeve we’re going to start next month. Vacation starts next Friday afternoon (the 23rd) and I am so looking forward to kicking back and relaxing before the holidays, getting stuff done around the house, doing some baking, sacking out on the couch with a book for three hours because I have nowhere to be, possibly headed downtown to get my rook checked out and get a daith while I’m there, and we’re headed to Gettysburg and then off to see the in-laws for a long weekend, only to end it with another tattoo appointment.

There’s a lot to look forward to over the next few weeks, and I definitely am. But I just have to take it one day at a time.

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The one where I worked 5 hours on my day off

My boss messed with the schedule the other day without running it by me first. I would have told him that if he did that, he was taking the only closing cashier. But he didn’t, so he ended up screwed. The plan last night was for me to go in and give him a hand for about two hours. Nope. Nope. Nope. I ended up going in earlier than expected and working five hours. No breaks. No help. Just me on the desk and him on the other register. It was a night. And I’m exhausted. Honestly, though? I felt bad that he completely screwed himself. I genuinely like the guy, and I know how it is to have no cashiers. So I went in, even earlier than planned, and made the night work.

I figure at the very least I’m building some good will – I’m going to need him soon as I’m going to be applying for corporate jobs in the next week or two. He’s on board, but I want to use him as a reference, so the more that I can do to suck up, I’m going to do it. I want a corporate job. I want to use my degrees. And honestly? I want the money.