Every day I wake up and take a quick assessment of how I feel, and I don’t mean mentally. Aches and pains? Nope. Fever? Nope. Cough? Nope? Chest congestion? Nope. Ok, good. Time to start the day.
It’s sad that it’s come to this.
What I will say is that people are fucking insane. The state stores are closed so we’re busy selling wine and beer in what seems like mass quantities. Every day there’s a large number of phone calls of people asking if we sell whiskey/bourbon/vodka/rye/etc. And then they get mad when I tell them nope, only wine and beer. And then I get screamed at because these people are clearly alcoholics and running out of their stash. Sorry people, can’t help you.
Yesterday I spent most of the day on register and had to keep telling people to take a step back because they were all crowded together. The population of the area is clearly not good at this whole social distance thing. I can’t believe the number of cases in the county isn’t higher because of it. Also, aren’t you all supposed to be STAYING THE FUCK HOME????
I started taking a B-complex vitamin recently, and I’ve definitely noticed the difference in my energy level. I feel good. And not that manic-good. I’m sleeping better (which is probably mainly due to cutting the dose of the Zyprexa in half), finally. I’m getting a more restful sleep rather than the sleep of the dead that I can’t wake up from. I get tired appropriately throughout the day and at the end of the day.
Despite everything that is going on in the world, at work, I’m doing well. I’m trying to keep my stress level down, I’m trying to prepare for the eventuality that I’m going to get sick without stressing about it too much, I’m trying to stay active and busy for the sake of my mental health. I’m trying to remove stress where I can.
The only thing I can say at this point is that we’re living in a crazy world. I’m trying to not get politically but I feel like so much of this is being handled totally the wrong way, and because of that things are going to get worse before they get better.
Stay safe, everyone. Stay at home. Stay healthy.