Getting my shit together again

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The last week or so I’ve been a little lax about a number of things in my life – staying organized, working out, eating right. etc. It happens sometimes; life just seems to get the best of you for a few days. Luckily I haven’t been totally out of the game so the house is still relatively clean and I’m mostly on top of things, but I’m not happy with the way things have been going recently in terms of things that I need to do. It’s not even that I’m really unorganized right now, I just don’t feel as though I’m on the top of my game, and I’m having a bit of anxiety about it. Time to knuckle back under and get back to basics. I’ve got this week planned out and I’m ready to tackle it.

Diet and exercise…. somewhere in the middle of the week I lost the time and motivation to do things like food prep and workout. When I get home from work at 10:30 at night, often times the last things I want to do are either one of those things. So I skip the workout and buy lunch at work the next day. Neither are things that I really want to do, I’m just being lazy. And I’m reaping the consequences as the numbers on the scale rise a bit and I kind of feel like crap.

So yes. This week. Back to basics. Meal prepping. Working out. Getting organized. Get the house back in order.

It takes as much energy to wish as it does to plan.

Eleanor Roosevelt

There are also things in my personal life that I’ve got to get straightened out. I really need to figure out what I want out of some situations, decide if others are really healthy or if I need to cut them out either partially or entirely, and how I want to handle some other things. I feel like my mental health will be less in turmoil if I sit down and deal with all of this head on rather than let it fester in the background.

I’m definitely happier when I feel like I’m more in control. So that’s what I need to do. Take control again. Put everything back in order.

It’s funny in a way. I used to be so free spirited and fly by the seat of my pants. Now? I like plans. I like being able to count on things happening at certain times. I like knowing what my days are going to look like a few days out. I’ve often it heard it said that people with bipolar disorder really need to stick to routines. I’ve found it to be true. Even though I can’t stick to a strict routine because of my job and schedule, I tend to do better when I’ve got a plan for the day/week/month whatever. I know what to expect. Yeah, I do much better that way. I feel more focused, more centered.

Time to knuckle down, get back to basics, and cut the bullshit out of my life.

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