What. A. Week.
Work has been absolutely crazy with a number of people either putting in their notice, finishing working out their notice, or people just stopping showing up, it’s been a hell of a week. There’s been a lot of stress, but based on previous employment it still wasn’t even in the top 10 most stressful weeks. In some respect I should thank my old job – literal life or death, now that’s stress. This? Meh. It’s stressful, don’t get me wrong, but comparably speaking it really isn’t all that bad. Sometimes you just have to work your ass off to compensate. At this point, we’re all used to it; being short staffed isn’t anything new and different. We just roll with it as best as we can.
So major events this week:
- I managed to stay both super productive and lazy as shit all week. I got everything I had planned to done, but I also didn’t get done a number of things that I had in my head kind of planned on doing, if that makes sense. What’s written down? Done. What I kind of figured maybe I’d try to do, nope.
- Got to spend a bunch of time with Mike. I’m trying to be more present when we’re spending time together, even if it’s just watching TV. I’m trying to keep my phone down, and only respond to the things that I have to (work emails that are time sensitive, important texts from my mother, friend having a crisis, etc.). Thank goodness for my Apple Watch that lets me weed through these things without actually having to pick up my phone.
- Diet went well for most of the week. Tonight when I got home from work while I was waiting for Mike to get done with what he was doing so we could eat leftovers together, I literally ate everything in the house. I couldn’t stop stuffing my face. Luckily I had some calories to burn so I didn’t end up too far over my goal. Still though, I literally couldn’t stop eating. By the time it came to dinner I wasn’t even all that hungry. Still ate, though. I’m going to make up for it by fasting tonight even though I hadn’t originally planned on it. As a side note, I’m seriously considering reactivating my gym membership just to get my ass moving again. I’m not wild about the idea of working out in a mask, but if I can break down two trucks in less than two hours and then put one up all while wearing a mask, I can handle the treadmill and stair climber in one, right?
- Ha. Twice over the course of the week I have written down “cats are nuts.” This week seemed to bring a new degree of crazy to the house with everyone chasing everyone else, everyone flying up and down the cat tree, etc. The nice thing is they’re all just passing out at the end of the night and not disturbing us while we’re asleep. I love having cats, but everyone once in awhile I think that 5 are too many. Not really.
- I need to make a full post about it, but I’ve been using the Erin Condren petite “planners” all week, and I’m so far really enjoying them. I’m not using the planners, I’m using more of the trackers – the budget, the wellness, the goal setting, and what I call the self-esteem one. I’ll make a more thorough post about them later this week if I get the chance.
- Adult ADD. In this post I mentioned a conversation with my shrink about adult ADD. He sent me some reading on it. Holy crap. So much of this makes so much sense. Maybe we’re preprogramed to see ourselves in things, but I feel like I tick a number of the boxes. I spent some time on the drive home one night running through all of the things that I do to keep myself organized and on track. The systems I have in place are actually kind of impressive. The calendars, the planners, the lists, the alarms, the reminders, the coping techniques for irritability and sudden rage that ends abruptly, always leaving 30-45 minutes earlier than I need to for almost anything, etc. On the whole, I don’t think a diagnosis at this point really means anything. It’s not disrupting my life, and I’ve figured out a system to help me cope. I don’t think I need medication for it, and some of the things I could use therapy for I’ve already done it or it’s on the list of things to tackle. At the end of the day, it doesn’t change much, but I think it’s helpful to know in case some of these systems start to break down.
Well, that was the week.
As an aside, I’m currently reading the book Columbine by Dave Cullen. It’s kind of an odd turn after reading a few cheesy romances, but I wanted something a little more thought provoking and deeper. I remember the day this all went down. On the East Coast, I was just getting home from school when the massacre was just starting. I remember watching it all unfold on CNN. Personally, it was especially horrifying as these kids were my age, I was a junior in high school at the time. I’ve read some conflicting reviews of the book, but I’m enjoying learning more about the attack, and Cullen seems to be doing a good job on separating fact from fiction while delving into the details of the day and also people’s mindsets before, during, and after, and not just Harris’s and Klebold’s. How “true” some of these things are is almost irrelevant (bear with me for a minute, here). I remember the press coverage in the days after, and what I remember is what he talks about. And he breaks a lot of that down to the bare bones and points out what was actually true, and what was perpetuated by the media, how and why. End of the day, it’s an interesting read. I don’t want to say I’m enjoying it based on the subject matter, but I’m pretty well riveted to it and am picking it up whenever I have a free minute rather than mindless browsing Reddit, Facebook, Twitter, TikTok, or Instagram. So that’s something, right?
Until next time, friends. Stay safe.
Currently listening to: Amy, I by Jack’s Mannequin