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Can you buy happiness?

I feel like for the first time, in a long time, I’m in a good place. Mentally, financially, spatially. Our roommate moving out made me realize that I live in this house, but I don’t live in this house. Sure, I chose the furniture and the stuff on the walls, but there were things that I always meant to do that I just never got around to. One of the things that I had always meant to do was create a photo wall going up the staircase. Well, I got an Amazon gift card for Christmas and didn’t have anything specific in mind, so I bit the bullet and bought the frames. It took even longer to pick out the pictures, but I finally hit send on the order. Ever since I was a little kid I’ve wanted one of these walls, filled with us, our family, our friends, our pets. It’s going to be a group effort getting it up since Mike seems to have more of a design and placement than I do. But I’m excited about it.

Now that we’re a few days into the new year, I’m still excited about the prospects for this year. I feel like I’m finally in a space that I can do things, achieve things, make this my year. I’m not blind to the fact that we’re in a global pandemic and things are pretty much shit right now, but I actually feel good about things. My boss and I had a long conversation recently about where I want to be in the company and what my goals are. It really put it into perspective that my goals are achievable, and I have support at both home and work to make them happen.

And mentally I’m in a good place. I feel better than I have in a long time. My head is on straight. I feel empowered. There’s a lot of things that I want to do. I have a lot of plans. I want this year to be a good year. I want this year to be a year of change, of success, or prosperity. But I know that it isn’t up to the universe to make it happen – I have to put in the work; the grit; the blood, sweat, and tears. This is going to be the year of work – personal, physical, professional, financial. And I’m ready for it.

I’m ready to put in the work. I’m doubling down on therapy, I’m making a plan to get healthy, I’m making the moves that I need to make professionally, I’m putting our finances in total order. I’m making 2021 my bitch in all manners of speaking.

Here’s to a good year. Stay safe, friends.

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