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Why is it always zepplins?

I swear, half of the shows that I watch when they flip to an alternate reality there’s always zepplins. Why? When did that become a marker of “hey, you’re in another reality?” And it pops up in unexpected places – episode 49 of Full Metal Alchemist just did it. I’m so confused as to how this became a thing.

I’m five books in so far this year, three of them being nonfiction. I just finished Sleeping Giants by Sylvain Neuvel. It was… ok. The story is told through a series of interviews, journal entries, etc. It’s an interesting way of telling the story, and it had the making of an interesting story, but I don’t think I’m going to read the second book in the series. I know the point was to come off detached from the story, but I was detached to the point of uninterested. I wasn’t pulled into the story enough to pick up the next two books in the series. Just my opinion. I’ve heard it said 1,000 times – life’s too short to read bad books.

I’ve been trying to figure out if the issue of my sleep is really a mood problem. I mean, I slept for 14 hours last night. 10 the night before. I’m sleeping a literal ton. I mean, I know that I’m exhausted when I get home from work, but this is getting ridiculous. And it’s not just regular sleep – I sleep hard. Half the time I don’t hear my alarm go off in the morning and end up waking up later than I want.

I know that my sleep patterns are often tied to my mood, but other than this I think I’m feeling ok. Is it weird that I’m not entirely sure? I have been wracking my brain, going over every day in detail, to see if there are any other symptoms, and I’m not coming up with anything other than being not entirely happy with my job. I don’t know. I guess this is something that I need to explore with my psychiatrist, and I need to find a new therapist. I just emailed my psychiatrist about both since I was actually thinking about it. My mood isn’t bad, it’s just very meh and I sleep a lot. I don’t think it’s depression, it feels more like… apathy. Maybe not even that far. Yeah, definitely not that far. Just… I don’t know. This sleep thing is the opposite problem I was having last August-September. Maybe it’s just a balance. Who knows.

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