So I’m really writing this on the 15th at…. 1:30 in the morning. Sue me, lol.
My sleep is totally screwed up again. I slept another 11 hours last night. And now… I have to be at work in a little over 5 hours and I can’t sleep. I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m just not going to sleep tonight. At some point I’ll kick back and relax, maybe snooze, but probably not sleep. I’ll push through the day at work tomorrow, do some grocery shopping and come home and pass out until some time Tuesday morning.
I hate living like this – like sleep is the enemy, like it can’t be trusted. But I’m well aware that when I get into these… grooves, for lack of a better word, that if I can’t guarantee that I can get a solid at least 8-10 hours I might as well not even try to sleep. It’s a hard place to be in. What really sucks is that there doesn’t seem to be an easy fix. It’s not like I can just take a trazadone and call it a day. What can you take, short of speed or cocaine, that makes you wake up?
So let’s look at last week, sleep issues not withstanding.
A whole lot of nothing, really. I’ve started dropping some of the weight. It’s clear to me that, at least, right now, I need the stability and accountability of tracking what I eat. It helps me see where I am over the course of the day, as well as keeping me honest in terms of my food choices. I also got two quick workouts in last week, so that was a plus. Now just to get back to the actual gym and on a treadmill.
I’ve been trying to put out fires at my old store all week. Under the radar, of course. I don’t want it to seem like I’m interfering, but there’s not a lot that I can do when people keep coming to me with problems. I’m not going to turn them away, it’s not in my nature. So I give advice, I counsel as best as I can, but I try not to directly interfere.
Work is getting better. This weekend was hella busy between it being the weekend, Valentine’s Day, and the impending doom of snow it was insanity. People claimed that yesterday and early today were crazier than Christmas. Hopefully this week won’t be as nuts.
I think I’m going to go veg on the couch and try to maybe snooze for an hour or two. Maybe drink some tea and read. I don’t know. We’ll see how it goes.