I managed to get a whopping two hours of sleep the other night. And surprisingly, that was more than enough to get me through the day. I made it through work, came home and got a number of things done, stayed up until Mike got home… and then slept for a normal amount of time. Caught up with me last night though, I was exhausted by 7, went to bed, and slept until 9 this morning. But for once, I didn’t actually wake up exhausted. I got up, and got stuff done. I got our taxes done, bought tickets to the museum for this weekend for Mike and I, got some laundry done… and I’m watching Cobra Kai. (Which seriously, you need to watch if you already aren’t.)
I feel better today than I have in quite some time. I feel motivated and ready to take on whatever today throws at me. I feel good.
My bipolar disorder anymore feels like a long tide – it seems to ebb and flow over the course of days. Some days are better than others, some are worse, some are just middling. I can’t seem to ever predict the way a days is going to go – today might be great, tomorrow might be shit, who knows?
It’s the part that I hate the most – the changing and the not knowing. It’s like every day is a new surprise, and I normally don’t want it. I hate surprises.
So hopefully today goes well, and that this mood holds for a few days.
That’s it for today. Stay safe, friends!