Guys. Guys! GUYS! I’ve had a couple of really good days all in a row! And my sleep hasn’t been totally fucked! (Still not perfect, but progress is progress and I’ll take it.) Work hasn’t sucked too badly. All in all it was a pretty good week.
I worked out tonight, first night in awhile. I didn’t go to the gym, but I did a lifting workout here – chest and back day today – and I’m definitely already feeling it. I want to be so hopeful that this is going to be a good week, but the pessimist in me isn’t holding out hope.
There hasn’t really been much to go through point by point recently. Life is just… normal. I’ve had some minor mood fluctuations as well as the issues with my sleep, but… not a whole lot to write about. I guess I can’t really complain. I’d rather life meander along and have nothing really all that interesting to say than have calamity after catastrophe go on.
It’s a weird state of being, being… normal.
In other news, Mike and I finally got to go on a date. We went to the natural history and art museum yesterday. Turns out, even with how many years he’s lived in this city, he’s never been. We had a blast. It was wonderful to get to spend an afternoon together doing something other than running errands, stuff around the house, or sequestered in our neighboring offices each doing something different. It was a lot of fun, and a great way to reconnect. It was a really great day.
And it’s back to the grind this week. I’m hoping now that I’ve got a diet more in line, as well as getting more used to a much more physical job, I can start working out and running again. I need to get that portion of my life back in order. I need to be more disciplined.
Sometimes I wonder if this whole thing isn’t a way of exerting control over my life. With the scheduling and the planning and the lists… I’m a bit of a control freak, if you hadn’t figured that out by now. But I don’t try to control the external, I control the things in my life that I can. Things like routine and schedule. Things like what to eat and what to do. It’s probably not healthy, but it’s also probably the healthiest of my unhealthy habits.
And now I’m rambling so I’m going to sign off here.
Have a good week, and stay safe!