mental health

I have so much to do today

I have to start getting ready for work soon (really soon), but I’m literally sitting here doing nothing. Ok, now I’m not doing nothing, but I’ve been doing nothing since I got home from an appointment this morning. Facebook really is the devil.

Luckily I’m off tomorrow so if I have to do some of it when I get home tonight I can. I’m glad this short stretch is just about over. I’m freaking tired. Adding a lifting workout the last three nights means that I’m sore as hell, but I’m feeling good.

I know it’s fairly obvious based on research, but I do feel better when I exercise. My goal tomorrow morning is to get my butt to the gym and get back on the treadmill. Time to start running again.

Sometimes I feel like I live in my own personal little bubble, and nothing that happens outside of it really affects me too much. My life is insulated. It’s like I have so much going on that I don’t notice things that don’t affect me directly. Does that make me sound like a narcissist? I feel like it does. I mean, I pay attention to what’s going on in the outside world, but the vast majority of it doesn’t seem to have much bearing on my day to day life. Maybe most people are like that, I don’t really know.

I guess it goes to the old phrase, in your life story you’re always the star.

My mental health overall has been pretty good. Missing meds the other day doesn’t seem to have an effect long term. I feel like I’m doing everything right, you know? I’m eating better, I’m working out, I’m taking the happy pills, I’m taking my vitamins and supplements… I’m doing all of the things I should be doing. But I still fill unfulfilled most days. I have constant worries about money, Mike’s car problems, my parents’ health, Mike’s parents’ health, a number of things, really.

In some fun news, Peeps has decided that he is now a bed cat. He’s never slept with us until this week. Now when one of us goes to bed he runs for the bed to get pets, snuggles, and eventually go to sleep with us. It’s cute. It’s sweet. It’s exciting. All of the other cats have always been bed cats. It’s just kind of fun that he’s decided to become one too.

That’s all I’ve got for today, time to go start getting ready for work.

I hope that everyone is having a good day. Stay safe, friends!

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