Well, tomorrow is the annual summer party. We’re as ready as we can be. We spent way too much money, but it’ll be fine in the end. We’re going to have a hell of a good time with our closest friends. We kept it small this year – between COVID and everything negative that’s happened this year we didn’t feel like having a huge blow out like we normally do. So we trimmed the guest list. At first I felt bad about it, but at the end of the day, it’s our house, our money funding it, so it’s our decision and our rules.
I posted yesterday about how happy I am with everything in the house, and it’s the truth. For the first time in a long time, maybe ever, I feel perfectly content in my space. And my mind feels calmer because of it. I feel more balanced, more centered. Yes, part of that is being back in therapy and actually making progress on some of my issues, but part of it is also feeling that my space is my space, and I’m able to do things like paint my office door, or hang paper ornaments from the ceiling, or put holes in the wall to hang pictures. Getting the house organized also has a place in that. But it’s nice.
I don’t know, I guess all there is to say is that at the end of the day, I’m happy. Do I wish my career was on a different path? Yes. But I can do something about that, and I’m going to. Do I wish we hadn’t lost two cats this year? Absolutely. But at the same time – losing Watson meant that Agatha and Salem came to live with us, and I’m grateful for that – they bring such life and entertainment to the house.
This last week off has made me step back and realize that I have a good life. And that’s something that I tend to forget in the monotony of the day to day. This has been a good reminder.
I hope everyone has a great weekend. Stay safe, and have fun!