And in the end, it’s not the years in your life that count. It’s the life in your yearsAbraham Lincoln Well, tomorrow is the day. 38. Two years away from 40. I don't feel like I'm almost 40. We had our annual summer party yesterday. It was an amazing time. 25 of our nearest and… Continue reading Tomorrow is my birthday
Tag: happiness
“You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.” ― Albert Camus
I'm finding happiness where I can right now. Work sucks, and is likely to do so for the next month. There's nothing that I can do about it. I just have to take the lumps and hope that things go back to the way that they were at the beginning of the fiscal year. So… Continue reading “You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.” ― Albert Camus
There’s something I often need to remind myself
Pardon my French, but I'm a fucking delight. Mike's been doing a lot of little things recently to show me that he loves me, and as a result I've become less insecure in our marriage. Which is a good thing. I've taken some time over the past few days to really think about the conversation… Continue reading There’s something I often need to remind myself
New year, new me?
I'm normally not one that's big on New Year's resolutions. But I need to make some changes in my life, and New Year's seemed like as good a time as any. So I quit smoking. I did switch to vaping, but my intention is by the end of the year to be off of that… Continue reading New year, new me?
I normally hate the holidays and this time of year
Hello, readers. I've been meaning to post for a few weeks, at least. I have a lot I want to say, but haven't really been able to find the words to say it all. So bear with me while I do my best. This time of year is normally hell for me. My mood is… Continue reading I normally hate the holidays and this time of year
Linearity
Most people assume that their life will progress on a linear track - go to the right school, marry the right person, get the right job, have kids, get promoted a few times, retire. But for a lot of us, especially those of us with mental illness, our lives are full of starts and stops,… Continue reading Linearity
This was the right decision
I quit my job almost three weeks ago now. It's amazing the change. My mental health is more stable, my stomach and intestinal problems have just about gone away, my hair has stopped falling out, and I've lost ten pounds. But my mood... oh my God I had forgotten what it was like to feel… Continue reading This was the right decision
I did it
I quit my job. God, I feel so liberated. The stress immediately melted off. My anxiety was reduced to almost nothing. My mental health almost immediately rebounded. I feel SO MUCH better. Granted, things are going to be a little tight until I find a new one, but we decided that ultimately my mental health… Continue reading I did it
Do you know where your llama is?
It's been awhile, hasn't it? I worked 26 days straight between the two jobs, and by yesterday I was dead. I was exhausted, had a low-grade fever, my stomach was acting up... I ended up calling off for the last day of that stretch. I just couldn't do it. I ended up sleeping on the… Continue reading Do you know where your llama is?
A little bit of everything – work, music, books, mood, and suicide
I don't think I've ever been so busy in my life. Between the two jobs I'm working between 70 and 80 hours a week. The money is good and is definitely helping our financial situation. But good grief, I'm practically never home. I sleep there. Maybe spend an hour or two trying not to fall… Continue reading A little bit of everything – work, music, books, mood, and suicide
